“Don't let the challenge dictate the course.” – an author, songwriter, and producer with autism
Michelle is a single mom of seven children who are diagnosed with autism. She advocates her strong belief in living a life for purpose and happiness. As an author, Michelle has published twelve books and her passion for music and songwriting has led her to be on the Grammys ballot for Song of the Year, Best Gospel Song, and Record of the Year.
You are a multi-talented author, songwriter, and producer. How has each talent shaped your life?M: I learned to read books and play the piano around the age of four. It was as if one day, I was suddenly aware of the mathematics of music and literature.
After what I called a 'visitation' from a man made of light, codes and combinations of revelation unfolded within my mind.
My parents were quite baffled at my instant talent emerging.
I knew that regardless of the limited information that preschool afforded, I was created by something far greater than myself. This Entity, which I distinctly felt as if a memory, created me to help bridge mankind to an awareness of peace and love.
My gifts of music and literature guide me to fulfill this purpose.
The Entity later told me It was a God named Adonai. I simply continued to listen and build my relationship with him. Music harnesses the sounds of the universe, literature is our attempt to convey the meaning of the universe.
What is your most memorable work and why?M: My children are the literal expression of the essence of the most memorable work I will ever do. We recently released a family DocuMUSICmentary, where we use music and story, to introduce people to our household of eight autistic people plus neurotypical grandma. My awareness of them is as equals, yet subordinates until maturity. They have had my respect since infancy, and I was merely their guide. Second is my work as a Seer. I am prophetically gifted, so I became a Certified End of Life Care Specialist. I sit with others as they transition from life, to what we term death. I am contacted by others around the globe, to support the quantum reality of our souls by way of prophecy.
What challenges did you face during your school days? How did you motivate yourself to face those challenges?M: I loved learning, but found school mundane.
My schooling days were perplexing. I told my mother that I did not like attending the 'The Human Zoo,' and considered it as an internment camp for the young of our species. I preferred a monastery, or some other institution of spiritual refinement and revelation. Music became my monastery.
School was always too loud, too bright, and I found humans to be quite illogical and I struggled greatly. I was teased and bullied, even through adulthood.
Around this time, I also began to have memories of what I called 'Before.' I would try to tell others that we were merely energy in bodies, and I'd describe the place where there was a white temple, and colors beyond human comprehension.
So...of course, people thought I was just a really intelligent, eccentric weird child.
However, my confidence in my awareness of 'Before,' never wavered. I don't mind if people think I'm crazy. I know who and Whose I am.
Things got worse after my father died. My mother remarried, and my siblings and I became survivors of an abusive man and a cult.
I endured over ten years of abuse and conditioning, and believe that I survived because my autistic brain could not easily be reprogrammed.
I learned to do what autistic people call masking. I studied human behavior through old movies and observed my peers. I saw people no different than algorithms that constantly changed. So, I did my best to survive.
Pain was a part of my existence since birth. I thought all people felt their bones hurt. Doctors were baffled through my adolescence. Final, after my children were teens, we were all diagnosed with a rare connective tissue disorder called Ehlers-Danlos. I was also diagnosed with Acquired Gitelman's Syndrome, Beriberi, Post Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, Hemiplegic Migraines, and after a trans Ischemic Attack...Foreign Accent Syndrome.
What are some of the best ways for families of children with disabilities to balance their professional and family lives?M: As an autistic, single mother, who has raised seven autistic children without their father the last twelve years, I found that transparency, authenticity, and honoring your word, were pillars of balance.
I included my children, often taking them to studios. If my time was sparse, I was committed to quality time being memorable.
It simply meant showing interest in what they loved doing.
I am very glad that my children are all autistic. We have very symbiotic relationships, functioning in synchronicity, often without verbal language.
I believe that parents should not limit their expectations of a child; instead, highlight strengths for success.
What are your other hobbies?M: My favorite hobby is watching Chinese Dramas with subtitles in English. I also enjoy discussing Quantum Mechanics, and am obsessed with Disney, stuffed animals, and real cows.
What is your favorite place to visit? What do you love about that place?M: My favorite place to visit is a ranch or farm. Nature exists within its own symphony. As I sit within the orchestration composed of animal noises and the smell of hay, I find great solace. I prefer places with trees and mountains. One day, I hope to go to Ireland and Israel.
What is your suggestion for families of children with disabilities to empower their children?M: Be honest with the reality of their challenges, but never stifle possibilities with your fears. Consider what lessons can be learned, or what truths you can experience, because your child is atypical. Don't use words such as 'right' and 'wrong.' Exchange them for the words, 'balanced choices,' and 'imbalanced choices.' This will support a healthy esteem. Stop using the phrase, 'You should have,' or, 'You shouldn't have.' Instead, allow your child to be aware that some lessons can only be learned in experiencing consequences. This leads to self awareness, good esteem, and encourages honesty. Befriend disabled adults, who share your person's diagnosis.
What tips/advice do you have for those in our community who are interested in writing?M: Read. Discover a few favorite authors and then ponder as to why you are moved by them. Create a writing space and just write. Some may want to take a Creative Writing course, to brush up on sentence structure ect. Join writing communities. Self publish over vanity presses. Most importantly, write about what evokes your passion and it's sure to magnetize your project.
Any special message for our community?M: One voice leads, piercing loudly within the darkness. Often, that voice of light is the first to be targeted...the first to feel the wounds which cause us to question purpose.
However, when the cries of the one, reach within the void, its familiar echo compels forth the warriors. You are not alone.
We are all ONE; fractures of a WHOLE, each seeking g unification through acceptance and peace.
Though often we are hazed into the infantry of humanity, the waves of LOVE will always replenish what is lost.
You are a divine creation of a divine God. The seeds of your heritage, if watered with the beautiful things of life, will grow within you.
Though at times you may feel swayed as a young sapling, there is a destiny of a giant Oak within you.
Always and forever, you are a unique entity, constantly in a state of transition. Allow yourself grace, as you navigate. Don't be afraid of being the ONE voice. Your voice matters.
Don't let the challenge dictate the course.
Love, love, love

